friends in the time of need

I should write this post 4 weeks ago after I met my high school mates and hang out with them, because I think I should thanked them.

The next day after that day I was going to face comprehension test of KAUP, one of the most stressful course in last semester. First time, when one of my high school mates called and asked me to hang out with them, I said no. I was thinking that I need to prepare for my comprehension test. But I feel so depressed about that test (also my routine-and–boring life in college) and I felt like I need to breath for a while. So 4 weeks ago, I tried to reduce my depression (and also as result of my impulsiveness) by hang out with them, even just for some hours. So I was there, met my 5 beautiful girls, and unexpectedly, I felt happy. Truly happy. It felt like I was out of my dark-and-twisty life for a while. I realized how much I miss to hang out with them (Well, it felt like a thousand year, we were too busy to hang out together), and talked about everything for hours, they are very fun persons to be with. Also, I always enjoy having them around, because they always makes me feel fun, feel alive, and most of all, they makes me feel beautiful, feel good about myself (I don’t know how it works though).

So thanks for my 5 beautiful girlfriends that day: Astrinda, Puri, Imelda, Sandra, and Sarah, you guys made my day! :)






P.S : Look at of our photos that day, I smiled happily, and it’s genuine (I just realized that before that day, I faked my smile most of the time).

Excited!

I'm excited!

Liburan baru aja dimulai seminggu terakhir ini, and I finally have time to get some rest, reduce my depression, and makes my body more fat by eat A LOT. Then what makes me so excited, specifically?

Besok saya akan kunjungan ke panti jompo Budi Mulya, tempat saya akan magang selama sebulan ke depan. And I'm excited! At least I'll meet some new people, but I also hope I'll have a great time working there :). Memang awalnya pas diumumin di kampus bahwa saya dapet magang di panti jompo, I wasn't really excited, consider my weakness to build a good relationship with older people. But I tried to see from the bright side: I could learn how to be an active listener.

So here is my plan to paint my holiday:
1. Be grateful, working in my workplace with passion and enjoy every moments of it.
2. When I finish my work there, I'll go to Tidung Island with some friends, and HAVE FUN.
3. In August, I'll work as facilitator learning skill OBM at my campus, and get some money :) (semoga aja gue lulus seleksi amiiin)

So there is no reasons for me to stop being excited.
Wish me the best! :)

"The miracle is not that we do this work, but that we are happy to do it."
-Mother Teresa

Spongebob and Me.

Once my roommate said that I became a Spongebob's maniac.

Oh ya, saya memang seorang maniak Spongebob. Well, maybe.
Kecintaan saya terhadap kartun Spongebob dimulai sejak lama dan berlanjut jadi kemaniakan untuk mengoleksi barang-barang Spongebob. Sampai hari ini saya sudah punya sekitar 15 barang spongebob. Hmmm, kayaknya lebih deh. Hehe.

Temen-temen saya sering banget cuma geleng-geleng kepala tiap kali saya pamer barang-barang Spongebob milik saya. Atau mengerutkan dahi membayangkan niat saya menjadikan Spongebob sebagai tema pernikahan saya. Atau mengelus dada tiap kali saya mengutarakan niat saya untuk menamai anak saya dengan selipan nama Bob. Misalnya Arya Bob Satria. Atau Bobita Elfrida.
Mungkin temen-temen saya heran kali yaaa, kenapa saya segitunya sama Spongebob. Saya juga bingung kenapa. Alasan klisenya sih karena emang ceritanya lucu, saya nonton setiap sore setiap saya pulang ke rumah, bahkan saya punya dvdnya segala. Alasan lainnya, bentuknya lucu dan ngegemesiiin, apalagi Patrick. Tapi baru aja saya terpikir, unconciously, bukan cuma itu alasan saya mencintai kartun ini.

I realize another reasons why do I love this character that much:
1. I envy Spongebob because he live his life more than I live mine. Spongebob digambarkan di setiap cerita sangat menikmati hidupnya, mulai dari menikmati pekerjaannya di Krusty Krab, menikmati rumahnya di sebelah rumah squidward, atau menikmati mengejar ubur-ubur bersama patrick.
2. I envy Spongebob because he knows what he want. At least he knows he wants to be chef at Krusty Krab forever. I'm 21 and yet still don't know what I want.
3. I envy Spongebob because he doesn't care what people said about him. Walaupun Squidward selalu marah dan benci pada Spongebob, Spongebob selalu percaya Squidward menganggapnya teman baik. Well, that's because Spongebob isn't smart enough, but still I envy him. I wish sometimes that I'm that stupid so that I'll screw what other people said about me.
4. I envy Spongebob's friendship with Patrick also. I had best friend for 11 years, tapi susaaaaaaahhh banget ketemu temen saya itu, karena kita beda kampus dan sama-sama sibuk. Apalagi sahabat saya itu tinggal di asrama, jadinya emang susah banget ketemu. And I think we're not that close anymore. Emotionally. Sometimes I feel so lonely even when I'm surrounded by people. Atau saya kadang pengen cerita dan tidak menemukan orang yang tepat untuk sekedar bercerita. And I end up feel so lonely. So yes, I envy Spongebob and Patrick's friendship like hell.

The bottom line is: I ENVY HIS LIFE.
I wish someday, sometime, I could live my life fully. Have fun in it, and get travelling to many places I'd never seen before. Or doing stupid things just to know how it feels. Or makes so many mistakes then learn from it without worrying my family's opinion. Or make friend with someone and having fun together everytime we could, so I never end up feel so lonely.

Or as simple as sit and look up the sky, thinking. And enjoying every moments of it.

*so my dear friends, tidak perlu mengelus dada lagi kalo saya bilang saya mau menamai anak saya dengan selipan nama Bob, please consider my reasons, I just want my children have a happy life like Spongebob's life, better than my life. :)